Life

My life going no where.

UGH

Faahhhk.
I feel upset.
Angry.
Dissappointed.
Hurt.
Hurt.

I care about him.
I really do.
But I’m started to think that I’m all for show.
Just an experience.
And nothing more.

He doesn’t call.
He never calls.
The only conversation we had on the phone was 9 minutes long.
He’s always the first to leave whenever we’re on msn.
Because he has homework.
And I get that. I really do.
But what about weekends?
On friday nights?

I feel so unappreciated.
Does he even feel the way I do?
He says he’s in love.
But it’s probably because I’m his first girlfriend.
His first kiss.
It’s something you want to hold onto.

I don’t want to get angry at him.
Because he’s a great guy.
And he’s focused.
I don’t want to distract him.
But I feel like he’s not even trying.
Not a bit.
And it hurts.
It really hurts.

Lies

Why do I keep lying to myself?
You think I could stop
If I knew how
Can someone teach me?
I’m not sure
Cuz I’ve discovered
that nobody can get close
I’d say I was a rose with thorns
But I’m more a thistle
Not that great to look at
and a bother to all
I’m sorry I’ve lied
And its too late to take it back
It’s just so much easier
than saying whats really on my mind
One day I’ll tell you the truth
One day I’ll let you go
If learn to be unselfish

I’ll Call it Love

So I said it back.
and now you ask
if i regret?
and i reply
i did
but now i don’t
because I found
that i can have room
for one more
in my heart

Maybe in Time

OH my.
what have I done
You’re perfect and more
Every girls dream
But for some reason I can’t
Make myself feel
what you feel for me
and though I do try
I think of you all the time
My Heart doesn’t beat
the way everyone describes it to be.
Maybe in time,
I’ll Get things right.
So please don’t leave,
I still need you here with me.

Do I love You?

Do I love you?
I’m not sure.
You confused me.
When you said it first.
After two weeks.
After four months.
Would it make a difference, if we met before?