UGH

Faahhhk.
I feel upset.
Angry.
Dissappointed.
Hurt.
Hurt.

I care about him.
I really do.
But I’m started to think that I’m all for show.
Just an experience.
And nothing more.

He doesn’t call.
He never calls.
The only conversation we had on the phone was 9 minutes long.
He’s always the first to leave whenever we’re on msn.
Because he has homework.
And I get that. I really do.
But what about weekends?
On friday nights?

I feel so unappreciated.
Does he even feel the way I do?
He says he’s in love.
But it’s probably because I’m his first girlfriend.
His first kiss.
It’s something you want to hold onto.

I don’t want to get angry at him.
Because he’s a great guy.
And he’s focused.
I don’t want to distract him.
But I feel like he’s not even trying.
Not a bit.
And it hurts.
It really hurts.